Mr. Vanilla where are you? Hey where did you go? I have been checking your site every day and there is nothing new. What is up with that? Even when you are not having sex you usually post something. Are you not in the mood lately or what? I have been missing you. I miss our witty banter. I know I have posted this stuff before. And I get back from my trip and you are missing. I haven't had all that much to say either lately. But I at least try to give some good visuals here. Please post soon if only to say hi.

Ok now that I have said my peace. I am going to give you the short version of the sex I finally had yesterday.

I have been quite horny as of late. I have been looking at a lot of porn and downloading quite a few pics. Some are really beautiful to look at and those are the ones that I post on my site. There are plenty of raunchy ones out there that I look at too, but I am not wanting that kind of thing here. I want people to look at this site and say that it is beautiful and sexy.

Anyway I was taking a shower yesterday right as my husband got home from work. I get out and ask him to come upstairs. He had a little grin on his face and I asked hime why. He said because I asked him to cum upstairs and that I was half naked. I said if I wanted you I would just be fully naked. So I dropped the towel. I told him to guess what I have been fantasizing about lately and he said Anal? I said yes. And for me this is a little odd. I have had anal sex before and I really didn't like it. But for some reason I have been looking at a lot of anal porn lately. So I thought I would start to give it a try.

We have a couple of vibrators, but I wanted a little bit of story from my husband first. He is good at telling stories off the cuff and giving good visuals. So he starts to tell me about a woman who is into asses. And she whistles at me on the street and gives me her number. So a day later I am fantasizing about her and fiddling myself and I call her. She tells me to stop and she will be right over. Of course the whole time my husband is playing with me and getting me hot. And he can't stand it anymore and shoves his throbbing cock inside me. At first I didn't want to because I wanted this to last a long time. But I wanted to cum too. He felt so good inside me. Then he put one of the vibrators in my ass. He could feel it buzzing inside me. I was already so close to cumming. Then he couldn't take it anymore and came first. Unfortunately for me, it is just his medication, but he stuck in there to make me cum too. I wanted him to fist me. But I am too tight. He can only shove four finger inside my dripping cunt. But it felt fabulous. I wanted him to just pound me as hard as he could. He continued to tell the story of the woman at my house fucking me in the ass with a strapon. He is whispering in my ear then sucking on my tits and ramming me with his fist. Finally I just let go in a scream of extacy. We laid in bed spooning and cuddling.

I haven't wanted sex like this in a really long time. I guess I am turning into a freak again. And we both like it. Now if we could only get our libidos to be on the same level. Our sex life will be explosive.

See you in the moonlight.

Dripping with Desire

Some Visual Stimulation

Ok, Ok what is up with everyone. I know my posts of the last couple of days haven't exactly been about sex. But I'm still not getting any. So I guess I will post a few pics and maybe that will make everyone happy. And Vanilla, what happened to your site? I haven't seen any new posts or comments from you lately either.

This is a relationship potential reading.
SECTION I: How My first love Relates to Other People


Venus Sextile Uranus with an orb of less than 1 degree

There is nothing humdrum about the way that you love. You have a flair for the unusual and the creative and are drawn to those who shun the conventional. You shy away from those who tend to be over-possessive. Your love affairs are also wonderful friendships.

Sun Square Jupiter with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

Sometimes you suffer from an excess of enthusiasm and plunge into relationships and projects without seriously considering beforehand the viability of the situation. You are kind, honest and good-humored. Sometimes you're also a show-off or a know-it-all.

Sun Trine Saturn with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

You are serious, responsible, well-organized and protective. You take care of the people to whom you are close and see to it that their practical needs are attended to. For you a relationship is successful when it falls into a comfortable, pleasant routine.




SECTION II: How Saphirelover Relates to Other People


Venus Square Saturn with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees

Since you were a child you have felt you could not just be yourself and be loved. You had to earn your love in some way by being or doing something special. You are far more self-protective than most people realize. Your best love partners are also work partners.

Sun SemiSquare Saturn with an orb of less than 1 degree

Your self-esteem is based less upon what you are in your own or others' eyes than on what you do. You may become so compulsive about achievement that you cannot relax into a warm, enduring relationship until you have achieved some success in your career.

Venus Trine Neptune with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

However cool or cynical you may appear to be externally, you are extraordinarily sensitive and romantic. You are gentle and artistic and would rather do without a relationship than be part of one which does not measure up to your highest ideals of love.

This is a couples reading from me and my first love. I never really thought of us quite this way, but we really were like this. And we are still friends.
Part 1: Planets and Aspects

Sun Conjunct Mercury

Your relationship may not be so much an emotional relationship as it is an intellectual one. Yours is perhaps a relationship where you can exchange thoughts and ideas, study, research, spend hours in conversation and enjoy mental stimulation rather than physical. For you, sex takes place mentally rather than physically. Rather than having an emotional rapport, you may be more detached and logical in your relationship.

Your conversations will be excellent and since you have so much in common, you probably think the same ways about life in general. You will have no trouble understanding what the other person is talking about. There are very meaningful discussions indicated here and should you be involved in creative or business ventures together, then this aspect is an added boost for the conception of new ideas.

You can feel very close to each other with this aspect, without feeling vulnerable, and doing your "own thing" will be a prerequisite for the two of you. Trips and travel, whether local or long distance, are also part of this aspect. Sitting still may be difficult for you both.

Sun Trine Neptune

This aspect suggests that this will probably be a very strong platonic relationship. It will be filled with spiritual, metaphysical, intuitive and psychic energy that only the two of you understand. You will be able to very strongly sense each other's presence and you are able to tune into what the other person is thinking, even if you are not together. If either of you haven't considered the spiritual or psychic realms before, then you will with this aspect. People will view you as having your heads in the clouds, impervious to what is going on around you. This is the only danger because eventually you are going to have to come back down to earth and deal with reality.

People around you will not see yours as a realistic relationship. They will view it as very impractical. Humanitarian and charitable acts as well as generosity for people less fortunate will serve to rebuild your lives in very special ways. You will do things you have never dreamed about before. Long distance travel together for pleasure, meditation, spiritual quests or for just being plain lazy are all effects of this aspect.

Don't let a lack of concern for material affairs keep you from doing your worldly duties. As long as we are on this planet, we do have earthly responsibilities that we must address. Avoiding these responsibilities will only bring trouble in the long run. Don't go looking for trouble - it will find you quick enough by itself.

If I Were...

If I Were...

If I were a month, I would be: October(I love the fall and Halloween!!)
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Saturday(when I am not working)
If I were a time of day, I would be: midnight
If I were a sea animal, I would be: Sea Turtle
If I were a direction, I would be: true North
If I were a sin, I would be: Lust
If I were a historical figure I would be: Cleopatra
If I were a planet, I would be: Venus
If I were a liquid, I would be: mercury
If I were a stone, I would be: Lapis
If I were a tree, I would be: an oak
If I were a bird, I would be: a flamingo
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a gardenia
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: a tornado
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: a Unicorn
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a flute
If I were an animal, I would be: dolphin
If I were an emotion, I would be: Love
If I were a vegetable, I would be: broccoli
If I were a sound, I would be: a moan
If I were an element, I would be: water
If I were a song, I would be: Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
If I were a movie, I would be: Tank Girl
If I were a book, I'd be: "Wicked"
If I were a food, I would be: dark chocolate
If I were a place, I would be: a small waterfall coming down the mountainside
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: jasmine
If I were a religion, I would be: pagan
If I were a word, I would be: fantasy
If I were a body part, I would be: that little spot just beside your pelvic bone, the smooth part
If I were a facial expression, I would be: a smile
If I were a subject in school, I would be: painting
If I were a cartoon character, I'd be: Eyeore
If I were a shape, I would be: an ellipse
If I were a number, I would be: 8
If I were a piece of jewelery, I would be: a silver cuff bracelet
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: an oversized big comfy chair
If I were a car, I would be: '57 corvette in cobalt blue
If I were an item of clothing, I'd be: a glamourous silk dress from the 1940's

So to play the game copy and put it on your own site, or just put your answers in the comments. I hope this gives you some insight into my personality.

Anon, answer me this

Anon,

I am going to start calling you Mr. Big since there is another anonymous signing in once in a while. Unless you don't like the nickname. If you don't choose another one and we will use that one. I know you and I had some back in the day, but I was trying to protect your identity. As with all of my visitors and friends. But I had some comments on some other pages and you haven't responded. So please answer here.
Anon,
Hey why don't you put the names of the people and their rank in your top 10 list. And I think I will start calling you Mr. Big, it will cut down on the confusion, I have another anonymous posting. Unless you want to be called by some other name.

See you in the moonlight.

Going on Vacation

I am sorry to notice that you guys have not liked the astrology stuff I posted. It looks like the only thing anyone has responded to lately is the IQ test info. Sorry to disappoint.

Well I am leaving town very early in the morning for 10 days to visit my family back east. It will be miserably hot and humid, but most of you know what that is like. Anyway I am just mentioning this because I am not sure how much internet access will be granted me while I am away. This may be my last post for a few days. I will try to check in though.

I will try to check my site in the morning to see if anyone has posted or if I get any other ideas for myself to post. If not, I will read everything in a little over a week. I will miss you guys.

See you in the moonlight.

Passion Test

SaphireLover, you're a Guardian Angel!

Chances are you've kicked around the idea of settling down on some shady lane with your honey and maybe even thought about having a kid or a couple of pets. Even if you've never cooked a pot roast or picked out fabric for curtains, we'll bet you've got solid nurturing instincts nestled within.

That's why, when it comes to your partner, you're the Mother Teresa of romantic relationships. Doing little things like planning cool vacations and jotting a quick love note, tells your partner daily how much you care. This A+ quality not only makes you a compassionate lover, but also a trusted friend.

Here's the rub: You're ready to give and give, but sometimes you might get resentful when your significant other doesn't return the favor. It can be difficult for you to let people fend for themselves, but try to focus on maintaining balance. Be sure to look out for number one, and try to indulge yourself as often as you indulge those you care about.


I know, I know, I have done a lot of these today. It is so addicting. I can't stop. And it doesn't make it any easier when my child is down for such a long nap that he doesn't distract me and make me do something else.

Some of this stuff I think is true, but not the part about cooking and style, I am so-o-o-o Martha Stewart in that area.

Sample Sexual Soul Mates Reading

I did this one about me and my ex, Mr. Big (Anon)


Your Desire: The Basis of Your Mutual Attraction

Venus Mutually Aspects Uranus:

The sexual magnetism between you is as intense as it is unpredictable. One minute you feel like you can't get enough of one another, and if you can't get your hands on one another you'll explode; but the next minute you may both feel an odd sense of aloofness that is a bit confusing, to say the least. The instability of your sex life may underline a greater instability in your relationship; still, rollercoasters are undeniably exciting, and you two love to party and have fun together.

From the very beginning of your involvement with one another, neither of you knew what to expect next. Your sexual involvement likely took off early and fast and has been unpredictable from the start. You may enjoy engaging in "risky behavior" together -- public displays of affection, the mile-high club and more -- or perhaps your sex life is sporadic, with one or both of you disappearing for indefinite periods of time and then returning for hot and heavy sex play, no explanations offered. If your relationship is long-term, you will both have to get used to the fact that your sexuality will always be intense but will subside, unpredictably, for periods of time and then come rushing back, full force. SaphireLover, in particular, may find Mr. Big unreliable or unwilling to make a commitment.

Your relationship in general is somewhat erratic and unstable (and therefore exciting), as is your sex life together. Sometimes you feel as if you just can't get enough of one another, as if you'll explode if you can't get your hands on one another immediately! The problem is, at other times you'll feel rather cold toward one another -- or, worse, one of you will be hot and heavy while the other coolly rebuffs any sexual advances. It may be difficult to maintain this relationship on a long-term basis as it may start to seem like one or both of you always has hurt feelings; however, the passion you arouse in one another is undeniable and may prove too addictive to give up willingly. Try not to take it personally if your partner rejects your sexual advances at times, and try to be kind when you reject those of your partner.

SaphireLover's Venus Opposition Mr. Big's Jupiter:

You both feel completely open and uninhibited when you're together, and your sex play, like the rest of your relationship, is characterized by an air of fun and games. Sex is like a romp for both of you! Neither of you feels a bit of hesitation about asking for what you want or need or inviting the other to take part in acting out fantasies. Your intimate relationship both reflects and furthers the happiness of your relationship outside the bedroom.

Hey Mr. Big tell me if you agree with this assessment of our sexual history. I do think it is accurate. We certainly had a good time while we were together. Although the only one of us that ever said no, was you.

Relationship Astrology

SECTION I: How SaphireLover Relates to Other People


Venus Square Saturn with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees

Since you were a child you have felt you could not just be yourself and be loved. You had to earn your love in some way by being or doing something special. You are far more self-protective than most people realize. Your best love partners are also work partners.

Sun SemiSquare Saturn with an orb of less than 1 degree

Your self-esteem is based less upon what you are in your own or others' eyes than on what you do. You may become so compulsive about achievement that you cannot relax into a warm, enduring relationship until you have achieved some success in your career.

Venus Trine Neptune with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

However cool or cynical you may appear to be externally, you are extraordinarily sensitive and romantic. You are gentle and artistic and would rather do without a relationship than be part of one which does not measure up to your highest ideals of love.




SECTION II: How My husband Relates to Other People


Venus Conjunct Mars with an orb of less than 1/2 degree

Yours was not a happy childhood and, while there is nothing you want more than a close love relationship, you may also fear it. You probably have an active sex life but may have some discomfort acknowledging feelings of love, dependence or vulnerability.

Sun Opposition Neptune with an orb between 1/2 and 1 degree

Your father was either over- idealized or he was rejected as a role model. Either way, your concept of what a man should be is not based upon a mortal person, but upon an ideal. This may lead to unrealistic expectations in close personal relationships.

Sun Conjunct Jupiter with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees

You have a genial, pleasant quality which inspires confidence in others. It sometimes surprises you the way people trust you with their innermost thoughts. Moral integrity is important to you and, while you are not judgmental, you will not violate a principle.

Sun SemiSquare Venus with an orb of less than 1 degree

Your love nature is very turbulent. You form relationships impulsively and then worry it's with the wrong person. There seems to be a dichotomy between the person you know yourself to be and the person you feel you should be in order to be valued and loved.

Sun SemiSquare Mars with an orb of less than 1 degree

Something in your relationship with your father aroused in you either fear or anger or both. Your relationships with men - personally or professionally - are not comfortable and when you are feeling vulnerable, you can be overly defensive or challenging.

Venus SemiSquare Jupiter with an orb of less than 1 degree

You may be overly self-indulgent and inclined toward excesses of eating, drinking, sex or anything which gives you pleasure. You would not be comfortable with someone who was too reserved. You can be quite extravagant both emotionally and financially.

Venus Sesquiquadrate Neptune with an orb of less than 1 degree

Love for you is often a "divine discontent". You are so romantic and idealistic it is difficult for any mortal person to sustain your interest without disappointing you. Your need to idealize loved ones may make you susceptible to illusion.

Sun Trine Pluto with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

Power struggles plague your relationships. Either you become the dominant partner out of a fear of being controlled or you become very passive, controlling indirectly through guilt or manipulation. Your father may have been emotionally abusive to you.

Sun Sextile Saturn with an orb between 1 and 5 degrees

You are serious, responsible, well-organized and protective. You take care of the people to whom you are close and see to it that their practical needs are attended to. For you a relationship is successful when it falls into a comfortable, pleasant routine.

Are You a Sex Goddess?

(another one from tickle.com)

Are You a Sex Goddess?
Stephanie, you're a Persephone!
A brilliant bolt of lightning descends! SHAZAAM! The oracle has spoken!

The smoke clears to reveal that inside you is a divine being,

PERSEPHONE, Goddess of the Night,

a woman in touch with her deepest inner desires.

As the most sexual of all the female deities, you are very comfortable in the bedroom. Your skill at pleasing a man is unmatched, and you know exactly what you need for your own pleasure. As a woman of passion, you're very comfortable with expressing your desires to anyone. You are a proud and confident woman who exudes sensuality. You cherish the intimacy of physical attraction and know what it takes to win a man. As a woman deeply in touch with your sexuality, you definitely know how to thoroughly enjoy yourself! Your polished bedroom performance always keeps them coming back for more. When everything is going right, a light shines down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!


See you in the moonlight.

I Q Test

I just took this weird IQ test on tickle.com. It is free, but they want some email info. I found it when I was checking my email. I just clicked on the answer of some question and it flung me into this. It is kind of long. But I was wondering what the IQ's of my fellow friends are. I don't remember ever taking one before so it is interesting. And if anyone out there knows what the numbers mean that would be great. I just copied the info and stuck it here. I didn't want to pay for the in depth report they offer. But it also said that I was at the top. But I think the absolute top number is 300, so wouldn't that just put me in the middle. Anyway, why don't some of you check it out and then let me know what your results are.



Congratulations, Stephanie!
Your IQ score is 122

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

Something for the Parents

"A Whole Nude World"

By walther, Fleury and Friedland

Aladin:

I can show you my penis
Big and sparkling and splendid,
I can make it extended
On my magic matress ride

I can open your thighs,
Rock your body like thunder
Over, sideways and under,
On my magic matress ride

A whole nude world,
Anew fantastic way to screw,
Everyone tells me "no,"
I need a blow,
So I can start my screaming,

Jasmine:

A whole nude world,
My sizzling space you never knew,
But when you're way down there
Engrossed in hair,
Now I'm in a whole nude world with you.

Aladin:

Now I'm in a whole nude world with you

Jasmine:

Unbelieveable size,
Indescribable squeeling,
Leaning, bending and kneeling,
At my moist and gaping thighs.
A whole nude world .

Aladin:

Don't you dare close your thighs

Jasmine:

A hundred thousand sperm in me

Aladdin:

Hold your breath-it gets better

Jasmine:

I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far,
I can't go backt to my virginity

Aladdin:

A whole nude world

Jasmine:

Every thrust of your thighs

Aladdin:

With new positions we can screw

Jasmine:

Every moment gets wetter

Both

I'll lick you anywhere
Hey, I don't care
Let me share this whole nude world with you

Aladdin:

A whole nude world

Jasmine:

A whole nude world

Aladdin:

That's where we will be

Jasmine:

That's where we will be

Aladdin:

A thrilling taste

Jasmine:

Of my hot place,

Both:

From you into me

I found this in some of my old notebooks and I thought it was funny and made sense for this blog. So I hope you have a laugh and remember those teenage/ early twenties.

Love Song For a Vampire

"Love Song for a Vampire" By Annie Lennox

Come into these arms again
And lay your body down
The rythem of this trembling heart
Is beating like a drum
It beats for you
It bleeds for you
It knows not how it sounds
For it is the drum of drums
It is the song of songs.
Once I had the rarest rose
That ever deemed to bloom
Cruel winter chilled the bud
And stole my flower too soon.
Oh lonliness of hopelessness
To search the ends of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine

( A love A love A love A love, Still falls the rain, A love A love A love A love A love A love, Still Falls the rain...
Been mine forever)
Let me be the only one
To keep you from the cold
Now the floor of Heaven's laid
With stars of brightest gold
They shine for you
They shine for you
They burn for all to see
Come into these arms again
And set this spirit free

Lack of Sex

Well you wanted to know how I am dealing with my lack of sex. It really sucks these days. And the thing is I am more angry than usual. I fight with my husband on purpose just to try to get a reaction. It doesn't really work though. I asked him if we are going to have sex before I leave town and he says we have time. I leave in 3 days. Not much time. Especially since we haven't had sex for just over 3 weeks.

As far as my own sex drive goes. I haven't been a total fiend lately I guess. But I have been looking at a lot of porn lately. That is where I keep getting all of my lovely pics to share with you. Half of the time I use my vibrator while I am on the net. The other half I don't. I have also been looking at some pretty kinky stuff too. Things that I haven't really been all that interested in till now.

I have always wondered about bestiality and now that the internet has everything you could desire, it is right at my fingertips. I don't even have to get dressed and find some weird place to check it out. Not that I would know where to go. It has been some odd sites to see. I also saw the first female-to-male transexual porn site, but he/she still has a pussy. It was weird. This guy is a huge body builder type, but with a pussy and a tiny dick. I mean you can barely see it. It is more like a really large clit.

But mostly I look at lovely naked women. Some is lesbian porn, some hetero. I also like a lot of art type porn pics. Just sexy, curvy women. All different types and shapes. But it has made me think about letting my hair grow longer.

I do fantasize about being with some of the women in the porn. Mostly I just like to look. Sometimes I am so much like a guy. That would be the lesbian side of me.

Voyeurism

Well I was just visiting a friends site and they said that I haven't posted anything recent so here goes.

I was wondering if anyone has been in an orgy. Or if they have ever had an audience while having sex. Or if they were the one watching someone else have sex.

I guess these type of questions ended up in my head because I have been party to a couple of them. I have never been in an orgy. Although I have thought about it a lot.

I was with this guy we will call Brandon. He and I met on a blind date, but somehow it ended up working out for a while at least. We were together for about a year off and on. We even lived together. Brandon did a lot of drugs, but at the time I wasn't really looking for the signs. Plus he was a heavy drinker. Anyway we were over at a friends house having small party and of course we wanted to have sex. Unfortunately there wasn't a convienient place for us to go. So we went outside in the backyard on the lawn. Brandon told me that his friends wanted to watch and I said o.k. I don't really know why I let them. I was sort of an exhibitionist at the time. I wasn't particularly proud of my body, but I was an extremely sexual person and for some fucked up reason I used it to get attention.

I also used to have a bad habit of taking my clothes off in public. I used to change in parking lots, or in my car in the daylight. I wouldn't really cover up either. I just liked the idea of getting caught. But when I did get caught I didn't like it. I was lucky that I never went to jail for indecent exposure. But I guess if you are a decent looking woman and young they tend to give you a break. There was also a couple of times, that I would say that I was tired at a friends house during the summer heat and want to take a nap on the sofa and I would take off my shirt and then fake like I was sleeping to see what they would say about me. I was a total nutcase back then.

I did watch a couple of my friends have sex. There was this one couple, she was an old roommate and her boyfriend. They wanted to go to the mountains to take pictures and just for fun. However I didn't know that the fun was going to entail us taking our clothes off till we got there. I ended up taking nude photos of my friends and they wanted to have sex there on the little bridge over the creek. It felt awkward though. I felt I was intruding, because it was so sweet and loving. It wasn't just sex. If only I had picked up on the signals, I could have had a threesome right then and there. They told me that later that day when we got home. I felt like an idiot.

But all in all I do like having these memories. I did some crazy stuff and I was lucky nothing ever really bad happened. But I don't really regret the things I have done. It has definitely made life interesting.

See you in the moonlight.